"The Paradox of Creation"
I am not finished, unbowed by twilight’s luring deceit,
Still burning in dawn’s furnace, seething with purpose.
I craft, weaving shadows into form,
Drawing order from chaos, shaping life’s unseen rhythm.
Through my mind, logic coils and blooms like smoke,
Game theory unyielding, poised on chaos’s fragile edge,
Systems resonating in harmony, trembling with dissonance,
My ideas, tempered by sleepless toil and searing doubt,
Now adrift, spreading like restless spores.
Some claim them, drape them in borrowed names,
Oblivion, the thief that plunders in silence.
And yet, in this theft, a paradox blooms:
A joy sharp-edged, bitter in knowing
That the roots are mine, veiled by foreign acclaim.
I watch as they spread into unfamiliar skies,
Unbound, wandering landscapes I will never tread,
Their hushed beginnings now roaring in unintended consequence.
Let others cloak themselves in glory’s fleeting rags—
Borrowed, frayed, unraveling at their seams.
The essence remains, etched deep into my bone.
It is enough to feel the world’s axis shift
Under the weight of patterns I willed into motion.
Still, I work—unyielding, relentless.
Through silent equations, through frameworks cloaked in shadow,
I carve futures from the void’s grasp and doubt’s weight.
PhDs no longer trophies,
But chisels against the unknown,
Tools to hone the jagged edges of raw truth
Into something unbreakable.
Each thought stripped bare, laid open,
Exposed to those daring enough to see.
I carve my name not in stone, but in whispers,
In systems alive, unbound by the chains of recognition,
Breathing in the architecture of action.
Even in solitude, she steadies my hand,
Her love the quiet anchor in the storm of my mind.
She smiles at the irony I wear like armor,
Knowing that to create is to endure,
To see the world turn and not be seen.
Let them take what they will;
The ideas were never mine to keep.
They live, thriving in their quiet revolution,
Each pulse a testament to the labor of creation.
For what is applause compared to persistence?
What is recognition to the knowledge
That the wind moves with my unseen force?
As my children stride into their chosen lives,
As time etches its changes on the faces I love,
I remain rooted, a witness to all that changes,
Yet still weaving, still building,
Still breathing life into the intangible.
Let my legacy not be the sound of my name,
But the enduring hum of ideas that outlast the silence.
Here, in this quiet, I find the paradox complete:
To create is to endure, and in that endurance,
To live beyond the self.

S. Tominaga AKA CSW
Nov 26, 2024
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